Finding True Love

I finally decided to move on from the heartbreaking episodes that almost left me paralyzed. I’m tired of crying when nobody is around. I need to smile again.

And someone did make me smile. Actually, there are two people who are making my day brighter… who are giving me hope that true love may soon come true.

The first guy is soon to be my upline (if franchising is going to push through). He’s not that good looking, but he’s intelligent; a graduate of IE at ADDU. However, I have two problems: he’s young and I don’t think he’s still available. Plus, he thinks of me differently. I bet his perception of me has been poisoned by his own cousin. Nonetheless, I like him. And it doesn’t matter whether he feels the same way.

The other guy is a former classmate at SPC. Unfortunately, I forgot his name but his face keeps on popping in my head… in my dream… day dreams… and while I am writing this post. I don’t know where he is now, but he has taken something from me.

These guys are special to me… they don’t know that, but I wish they would get a hunch of my true feelings for them.

I Hate Change

Change is good, but not for me.

Change allows you to grow, but I refuse to grow.

I miss the old times. I miss my friends.

And most of all, I miss my old life… brother and sisters taking care of me… parents are without any illnesses.

I can’t stop change, I’m aware of it. But I want to go back to the previous chapters of my life.

I want to see my old life again.

But change won’t let me.

So I’ll just go and sail through.

Article Revisions And San Pedro College Defeated La Salle

Whew! I have revised some articles, yet again. What I like most about my job is the knowledge that I gain through my research. It’s fun.

I’m going to rest now. Meanwhile, I’d like to share this funny SMS sent by a good friend of mine.

La Salle and Ateneo to San Pedro College: Your tuition fee is equivalent to our cellphone “load.”

UST and FEU to San Pedro College: Your enrollment fee is comparable to our coffee gimmicks.

But San Pedro College to LaSalle, Ateneo, UST, and FEU: Your board exam is akin to our quizzes.

No Work

I was so busy yesterday but today, not so much. I made some revisions for some articles. This same moment reminds of the things that had happened before. I still can’t forgive him.  Anyway, even though I’m not that busy today, I still received my monthly salary. But I still hate him.

I’m currently listening to Insomnia by Craig David. It’s a cool song, with the beat and stuff. I love it.

Since I’m not so busy today, I think I just have to finish reading Twilight Book 1, Readers Digest and Sword of Truth.

The Heart of the Matter Lyrics

I got the call today, I didn’t wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin’ on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love’s open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I’ve been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning them again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There’s a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They’re the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn’t keep us warm

I’ve been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

All the people in your life who’ve come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin’ that anger, it’ll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I’m thinkin’ about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don’t love me anymore
Even if you don’t love me anymore

version of India Arie… song originally performed by Don Henly of Eagles

It’s a nice song… this is how I feel.

Halo Lyrics

HALO by Beyonce Knowles

Remember those walls I built

Well, baby they’re tumbling down

And they didn’t even put up a fight

They didn’t even make up a sound

 

I found a way to let you in

But I never really had a doubt

Standing in the light of your halo

I got my angel now

 

It’s like I’ve been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin’

It’s the risk that I’m takin’

I ain’t never gonna shut you out

 

Everywhere I’m looking now

I’m surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you’re my saving grace

 

You’re everything I need and more

It’s written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won’t fade away

 

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

 

Hit me like a ray of sun

Burning through my darkest night

You’re the only one that I want

Think I’m addicted to your light

 

I swore I’d never fall again

But this don’t even feel like falling

Gravity can’t forget

To pull me back to the ground again

 

Feels like I’ve been awakened

Every rule I had you breakin’

The risk that I’m takin’

I’m never gonna shut you out

 

Everywhere I’m looking now

I’m surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you’re my saving grace

 

You’re everything I need and more

It’s written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won’t fade away

 

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

 

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

Halo, halo

 

Everywhere I’m looking now

I’m surrounded by your embrace

Baby I can see your halo

You know you’re my saving grace

 

You’re everything I need and more

It’s written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won’t fade away

 

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

 

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo

I can see your halo halo halo

 

I simply love this song. Amazing lyrics. 

Even If

Dear Lake,

All those sleepless nights
All the tears I cried
All the pain I kept inside
I kept asking myself why
You had to say goodbye

Was it just a dream
When you said to me
That there is someone new in your life
You could have at least lied
The truth just scared me

Even if…
You mean the whole damn world to me
I can forget you, wait and see
I can be strong even without you
I cant waste my life forever
Hoping youd come back to me
But deep inside I know
Ill be waiting here for you

 

Jeda

[Even If by Lea Salonga]

Choose one

What if you’re standing between two telephone booths and you really need to choose one…

YOU can only choose one.

Left: The one on the left is functioning well, but someone’s inside.

Right: On the right is empty, but you’re not sure if it’s broken.

Are you going to wait for the one on the left even if you’re not sure when the person inside would leave?

Or would you rather take the chance offered by the right booth even if you’re not certain it would work?

1 Corinthians 13:4

“Love is patient; love is kind
and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith,
its hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things
that last forever: faith, hope, and love;
but the greatest of them all is love.”

WTH

 

What if someone … really … has to …

…maybe that someone is wishing … “Sphincter … please don’t fail me.”

=))

Photo taken at F-RR of VP in DC